What a strangely transformative year -
in our fragile world -
and in my life, too.
So much pain and so much loss!
How can any 'Good' come out of this?
After I fractured my femur in July 2019
I felt flat and immobile
no eros, no juice.
I had to surrender to the painful
limitations of aging.
I felt truly OLD.
Yet I still hoped to return
to the 'old normal' -
walking in the woods
feeling pretty spry - etc.
But the damn fracture did not heal.
I became an invalid.
NOTHING GOT BETTER
for months
BUT THEN
One morning I woke up and thought -
I CAN LOVE THINGS
just the way they are
even if I never recover -
I don't have to be an invalid!
SUDDENLY - AMAZINGLY
I knew I was more than my aging body
My spirit was still alive!
I BEGAN TO CREATE THINGS
I pasted this ancient Chinese saying on an old piece of barn siding - plus a dry leaf - and added a little stone on which I stamped 2 hands
I understood
that whatever happened to my body
my spirit could still
enjoy the beauty and blessings
all around me.
My "new normal" is exciting!
The days of my life are precious.
First thing every morning I lie in bed and listen to deeply
soulful music.
I'm filled with unexpected contentment!
Learning to live with the unknown
Sending love to those who suffer
Accepting my vulnerablity
Allowing my natural joy in life
to fill my being . . .
OK - ENOUGH THINKING
I have to sit down now and carve a piece of wood
or rock a little on the glider
breathe the sweet air
feed my soul ~
FAREWELL AND BEST WISHES
Thank you
for sharing this blog with me
from 2007 'til now!