I JUST TURNED 84 YEARS OLD
What I'm trying to figure out is
how my body can be aging SO obviously
while inside my heart and mind - something different is going on!
I'm truly grateful for my dear old body
so often taken for granted
suffering it's aches and pains
decades of wear and tear.
Alas, I've fed my body poorly in times of stress
offering it imaginary sweet solace.
my heart and mind
endured the heartaches, betrayals, confusions,
guilts, regrets, rebellions, doubts
And all the struggles 'the flesh is heir to'.
And also enjoyed the joys, rewards, passions, fulfillments
Now I marvel at the things that troubled me when I was young -
yet how important those hard lessons turned out to be!
I survived and learned - humility, among other things.
And trust in the process!
BUT NOW, at 84 -
My aging body is NOT the most important thing!
So, WHO AM I, INSIDE, at this stage of life?
I AM A CHILD
I love to play ping pong
love to take pix of my pets
laugh and be silly,
dress up, dance, act
I AM A CRONE
Still learning to express my essence ~
which turns out to be quite loving and trusting!
A lot of exterior stuff doesn't matter to me any more
I feel somewhat detached - yet totally present.
I love my friends, animals, music, fresh air, ideas, peace.
I know who I "BE"
I'M OK WITH THAT!
I trust the wisdom of my body
I own my own shadow (some of the time)
I AM AN ARTIST
(or at least a devoted craftswoman)
My soul needs to create with words, pictures, wood, leaves, color
Hours fly by when I'm building or designing
~ like this little studio
discovering beauty in simple things
I AM AN INTROVERT
I read, I ponder, I wonder, I rest, I muse, I am quiet
except when the joy of life whirls me into ecstasy
OR when I'm excited by ideas, music, beauty
and honest talk with friends!
I AM CONTENTED
So happy to have my mate, my pets, my pals and my home.
My body ages daily - but my mind is alive and well
(at the moment!)
I finally accept the MYSTERY OF EXISTENCE ~
a calm and peaceful state - after years of searching!
I'm so grateful for the sense of being Guided safely
through the strange and individual pathways of my life.
These years I take the days as they come
and value this precious gift of life.
"Treasure this day, and treasure yourself.
Truly, neither will ever happen again."
( Ray Bradbury )