Remember Judith Viorst's bestseller: Necessary Losses?
About growing up - letting go of lost loves,
dependencies, impossible expectations, illusions . . .
It reframed heart-wrenching losses
as necessary steps to maturity.
. . .
But some of us also face the loss of ourselves as
DESTINED FOR GREAT THINGS!
I don't mean that we must let go of ourselves as unique.
Each of us is truly unique.
But there is a time - maybe around middle age,
when we may wonder, despairingly,
why we have not seen the "big writing in the sky" -
announcing our call to Africa to be the second
or why we haven't experienced the sudden knowing
that we must write a great American novel . . .
We knew it might be hard and involve a sacrifice
We knew that IF such a clear call came we would
We'd be on our way to fulfill our life's purpose!
Alas, the sky revealed
no such message
That clear call never came.
Life went on as usual.
OR WAS IT USUAL?
Maybe, in truth, it offered lots of unusual chances,
dozens of synchronicities,
many surprise meetings, unexpected invitations,
great opportunities to learn and express my individuality,
PLUS, of course,
the inevitable sufferings
"that flesh is heir to".
I may not have recognized the 'CALLS'
within each of these moments ~
The hard chances to be authentic
true to myself.
Yet, looking back I see that I have been 'CALLED'
to become more and more my 'ordinary' self
It feels so good to find joy in expressing
MY ORDINARY GIFTS
So often tossed aside as unimportant ~
Imagining I wasn't fulfilled because I wasn't 'called'
to live someone else's more amazing life!
A VERY NECESSARY KNOWING
As Carl Jung said: "Who will live your life - if not yourself?"