GOTTA BE ON TIME!
GOTTA GET EVERYTHING ON MY LIST DONE TODAY!
GOTTA RESPOND TO THOSE EMAILS!
*I CAN'T STAND IT if the car in front of me is only going THE SPEED LIMIT on a two-lane highway along the beautiful Pacific ocean. So I step on the gas, rev my old 6-cylinder Audi up to 180 and leave the nerd in the dust!
*I hate standing in line. I walk fast past a field of flowers to keep my heart rate up. I multi-task to save time . . . and no one thing gets full attention.
*I sometimes feel that NAPPING, READING, and even THINKING - are A WASTE OF TIME.
Actually, that's not true. I nap and read and think happily every day.
Yet The Driven Stuff is like a habit, even in these 'golden years'.
What is WRONG with me?
DASHING, HOLDING MY BREATH???
There's a tightness in my chest when this ANXIETY TO RUSH takes hold. I am DRIVEN.
Its different from rush of energy that comes with a new idea. THAT DRIVE seems to spring from within, fueled by the imagination . . . with its own source.
The BAD rushing seems like a SHOULD.
SO Yesterday, driving along that same gorgeous 2 line highway I put the Audi on cruise, listened to an old cassette of some fabulous sing-along songs, and RELAXED behind the wheel!
It felt wrong at first. Then lovely.
Now maybe the DRIVEN drivers behind me will think:
"Look at that old bag poking along . . . she shouldn't be on the road!".