Hard to believe, but I'll be 80 in a couple of years. I just realized today, over a steaming cup of lemon ginger tea, that I no longer have to hang around with people and problems that focus on phases of life I've already climbed through!
Apparently I have a whole new life assignment with it's own rigorous tasks and curcuitous routes.
It seems natural to get caught up in the troubled lives of our children, or the crazyness of the current world. I empathize. But I'm not there.
Maybe I'm supposed to excuse myself from the fray? I need to step up to the well-earned spot where I can look back at my wounds and struggles with compassion. And put my energies into taking the next step...into eccentric cronishnes.
TV seems banal these days; inane, silly, chaotic and superficial. Politics is as usual. I just read a fabulous history of Cleopatra; queen, brilliant strategist, ruler of the intellectual center of the known world in the century before Christ. Alexandrian society was highly sophisticated, full of scholars, philosophers, libraries, artisans, warriors, lavish celebrations, intrigue, chaos and wars. So there is NOTHING IS NEW UNDER THE SUN. Empires come and go. Human nature is predictable.
What if my next lesson is to finally allow myself inner peace? to stay centerd and keep calm...to aim for Eccentric Cronedom...which seems to be another whole level of detachment from past psychological and societal prisons.
We all have to make the long trek to become ourselves. We each come to the starting gate with unique genes, personalities, families, environs...etc. But the tasks are similar. Others are at different places on the path...and I'm in no posiition to judge them.
I would be very nervy to call myself a realized authentic adult woman or a wise crone. But I'm working on it - and delving deep to find a map for this next part of the journey.
Love reading your blog. I am 20 years and a couple of changes behind you. What is the Cleopatra title?
Always, StillDancing...
Posted by: Susan | January 06, 2012 at 08:51 AM